tHouGhtS tO sHaRe

alasyete ng umaga lumabas ako sa opisina,

magwiwithdraw sana pero unavailable yung ATM machine sa lobby. Patay!

naghanap muna kung saan pwede magwithdraw tapos tumuloy sa SSS kasama ang 2 kaopisina. magaapply kami ng ID.

pagod at inaantok na pero sige pa rin, pumila, nagantay…at nagantay pa ulit..

turn ko na sa wakas!

excited, nakangiti pumunta sa nagveverify.. nagtanong sha

SSS lady: “bago ka lang ba sa kompanya mo?” 

ako: “umm..six months na po, nagsimula ako nung July.”

SS lady: “Sorry d ka pa qualified for an ID kasi o ‘No contributions made’ ka pa.” (habang pinapakita sakin ang monitor ng PC).

ako: “what????!!!! bakit?” 

SSS lady: “i-verify mo muna yan sa company mo.”

badtrip! anak ng pating.. sayang yung pagaantay ko..

bumalik ako sa upuan at sinabi ko yun sa kasama ko..nagstay sandali dun at nagdecide bumalik sa opisina para magtanong.

ayon, chineck ng mga taga opisina sa website ng SSS yung contributions ko, at lumabas na meron naman akong contributions simula august!

hai…gobyerno talaga! tsk..

so, bumalik ako sa SSS at kinausap ko ulit yun SSS lady na nakausap ko, chineck nya ulit at ayun! lumabas na ang totoo…meron nga akong contributions! 

ako: “hai..sana kanina pa ako natapos.”

SSS lady: “Sige bigay ko na dun (kung saan magpapalitrato), upo ka muna.”

ako: “OK po, salamat.”

after nung nasa loob, ako na yung sumunod na tinawag.

pinauna nya na pala ang papel ko.

nakakahiya sa mga nakapila pero OK na rin, para makauwi na agad ako.

ipapadala na lang daw sa bahay yung ID after 2 months….

yesterday morning, i took time to open my organizer and read some of the things that i wrote there. it’s been a week since i last wrote something, browsed through the pages and came-across with the goals i have set for this year.

Well, January is almost over and i felt sad realizing that i haven’t taken any steps towards the fulfillment of those goals.

How will i do it?
How can i achieve it?..
When there are so many factors that hinders me from doing so.

Sigh…

sabi nila, wag daw magpakaburo sa past at wag din daw mashado intindihin ang future. 

 Pero paano???

ang past ang nagdala sayo sa ngayon at kung anong ginagawa mo ngayon ang shang magdadala sayo sa future.

sige nga, ikaw ba nabubuhay ng d iniisip ang past and future?

nakakatamad magblog.

 wala naman akong maisulat..

i got my license  today!

yipee! 😀

Its nice to see my name and picture on that ID.. 😀

work is getting more and more boring. not because we have lots of stuff to do, but because we don’t have anything to do.  Well, ok.. we have something to do but we don’t really know if what we’re doing is right.As pioneers of the account we started with nothing and i mean it literally.We discover things by ourselves, from knowing what our account is to developing ways to improve ourselves for our account to prosper.We have been working for almost six months now, and still, nothing is happening.

sometimes i think of giving up the job to pursue the thing that i really want to do–that is to work as a nurse in a hospital. other times i think of staying until such time that some of our goals were fulfilled but it seems that it will still take a long, long time before it happens. 

i dont wanna be stuck here..

but i dont want to leave without seeing any improvement in our account.

hai………buhay!

i just finished a file that needs to be done when my tummy sounded so loud.  Its time to eat and so i invited cons and roma to have lunch but cons said, “later na, mga 1.” Ok. fine. and so i tried to keep myself busy, thought to practice typing but then decided to browse my friend’s blog.  i tried to access kringle’s blog at blogspot and i was able to.   😀 yipee! finally i get to read her posts.  some of it made me happy, others sad.  I want to comment on her recent post but the system won’t let me. (suf control! grrrr.) while browsing her blog, i saw her picture together with some of our high-school friends.  I suddenly miss them. And now i’m wishing to see them. hai..

It’s monday! first day of the week.. 

spent 9 hours in the office without doing anything.

hmmm…. nice..

but not quite….

yipee.. 1 hour and 30 minutes na lang uwi na ko.. 🙂 finally makakatulog na din..

 nakakapagod…nakakaantok…

pero konti pa…onting oras pa…

i’m almost 24 hours awake now. walang onting sleep kahit 1 minute.  I’m sure if nie will know about this, magagalit yun.  May onting sermon ako nyan, lalo na pagka nagkasakit ako (wag naman sana).  Kanina nga lang e, nung nagkita kami saglit, i told him that i don’t have plans to sleep ’til the end of my shift, (mind you, shift ko, 10pm kahapon to 7am kanina tapos shift ko ulit ng 4pm-1am mya.) ayun, kumunot na ang noo, sumimangot at tpos pinipilit nya ko na matulog daw ako kahit onti. (he’s talking to me while looking at his feet.)  ako naman, i was just starring at him with a naughty smile on my face.  Bigla sha napatingin sa kin, siguro kasi nafeel nya na nakatingin ako sa kanya, tapos sabi ko sa kanya (habang nakangiti) “kinikilig ako..” Napangiti na din sha sabay sabi, “ano ba nie, dapat nanginginig ka na sa takot hindi kinikilig..” (pro sha din naman kinilig na din!)  

I know he’s really serious with what he said, i smiled not because i don’t want to listen to him but because during that time, i felt so lucky that he is there caring for me.  During that moment, i saw in his eyes how worried he is, how badly he wants me to sleep.  

 It’s a great feeling knowing that someone loves you and cares for you more than you do for yourself. 

Kaya eto ako, kahit walang tulog…kahit medyo bangag na, happy pa din.

 The thoughts of him makes me smile and i feel so happy deep inside.